Silence...How Sweet the Sound?!

As I sit here completely alone in the house, I notice how quiet it is and I think to myself how many times a day I truly pray for silence? My children are always calling my name, needing something, desiring a referee for the current toy match, looking for lost shoes, mad because the kitten attacked from under the bed. Yet, during each of those times I am desperate for it all to just be over and now I am sure I could not live without it. While I totally agree that ALL mothers need some alone time and freedom to be their own person, outside of being mama, mommy, mom, or ma. Once you have become one of those aforementioned names, your life is one that cannot live with silence.

Somewhere in the middle of all that chaos I have created within my heart a place that houses all those things which I sometimes see as a nuisance and when I least expect it they are viewed only by me as a real treasure. I thought after multiple shopping trips with 3 children in tow that I longed for trips where I was the only one trudging through the chaos, but when I get that rare event I quickly realize that I feel somehow lost and confused without my children there.

Now, again I am not saying that I want to be around them all the time and do not truly wish for my own. However, I know that in my heart of hearts when I hear my name called "Mama!" I am forever more going to be loved, even when I am gone and the memories of me are the only thing to remain. Would you really want it any other way? For those nagging "mama, mommy, mom, or ma's" to be gone, never to be heard again?

I say no, absolutely not! I believe that if I never had the joy of hearing those words again, my life would cease to exist for its true purpose. "For you created my inmost being; you knit me together in my mother's womb." Psalm 139:13 They were knitted together in my womb and I am their caretaker, provider, friend, teacher, and mother.